I never talked about this

But two years ago, When i did nothing but party. Me and my friend were riding around trying to find one and she had to go to a friends house, cause her friend was being emo. So I went out to a party at the lake by myself with a bunch of guys and me only knowing one of them.
I sat next to a guy and shared a 30 pack with him.. and as soon as I stood up.. I found out how drunk I was.
Well later on that night, someone threw a beer in the fire, and the guy I was sittin next to thought it was me and called me a "bitch". well I got mad and slapped him and he stood up and was gonna hit me but this other guy made me sit on his lap. And that was about 1230ish 1 in the morning. Well I guess a few hours passed.. and I guess I woke up on the guys lap that I slapped.. with his hands down my pants. Still trying to comprehend what was being said and going on.. I heard the only guy I really knew say "just take her to the tent man, shes drunk and passed out." So I lifted up my head. And asked what time it was. It was 5 in the morning. And I asked where James was.. the guy who made me sit on his lap.. and they said he left hourrss ago. I do not remember a thing that happened that night. And it scares me because who knows what they did to me. I could have been raped or what not. And itts a little touchy subject.. since I dont know what happened at all..
Always have a friend with you when you drink..

It's Kinda funny actually.

How I put myself in this situation everytime... thinkin "ok this time I'm not gonna make a mistake. I learned from them and if a guy screws me over one more time I know how to deal." Not saying that this happened to me.. yet. I just hate how I am so positive about things.. and in the end it turns out the way I never expected it to. Sometimes I don't think.. And It gets me in trouble.. and When I do think about it.. I loose my chance. It's all so confusing. And annoying. But in the end.. none of this is gonna matter.







I really thought I was smarter this time then I usually been, but I guess I'm not. But once again.. I learn from my mistakes like I do everytime.. but nothing changes. AHHHHH. ejofhadjfhajfh














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